Jake's First Day of First Grade...

Oh boy...Jake is starting first grade tomorrow. I'm already getting 'teary-eyed.' We met his teacher today at the 'meet-n-greet' and found his desk and put his supplies in it. For some reason, I am more 'sappy' about first grade than when he started kindergarten!! Maybe it's because he'll be gone all day (K was a half-day deal)...? On one hand, I am so sad by it because 'what am I gonna do without him bugging me all day?' Ha!! But on the other, I look at it as a PERFECT opportunity to focus solely on Jason. My 'goal' is to add to his word bank - A LOT - during this 'school year.' I'm not expecting miracles (yes, I am, who am I foolin'???), but I intend to do it!! He's very moody, though, so we'll see how far I actually get. I also think he's heading into his terrible two's - he's been throwing fits a lot lately!!!! He tends to throw these fits when I'm trying to 'work with him.' I think he's 'onto me' and knows I'm trying to teach him something...smart little cookie!! :)

VERY EXCITING - we left Jake's teacher. We were saying "bye, see you tomorrow" and Jason (who was in his stroller - he's a runner, poor thing, so I feel like he's always 'along for the ride') turns his head back, waves, and says, "Buh BUH!!" WHOOPEE!!!! What a thrill I get, just from something as simple (and probably meaningless to others). Just makes me wanna squeeze him every time!!

I SO wish my husband could be around more...he works all these crazy hours, gets home anywhere from 4-10p sometimes (UGH!!). Jason's new thing is shaking hands. Our neighbor's boy taught him that and now Jason wants to constantly shake my hand. Kevin actually got home at a 'decent hour' (it was FIVE!! WOW!!) and so we were outside. Jason walked up to him, with his little hand held out, and Kevin 'high fived him.' I wanted to say, "You big dummy!! He wants to shake your hand!!" So I told him (minus the 'big dummy') to shake his hand and Jason was all smiles. It's things like this that Kevin is missing out on. This happens a lot. Jason will say something, do something, look a certain way and Kevin looks to me and asks, "What's he doing?" OMG!!!!!

I'm having a bit of a dilemma...Since I quit work back in February, we've been 'struggling' a little, financially, and so Kevin and I have tossed around the idea of me getting a part-time job. I've put in applications here and there (the school district is hiring, too!), and haven't heard anything. BUT, my dilemma is this - what if I get a gig that's during the day? I guess I'll have to schedule new times/days with our SLP, but I hate to disrupt what we've got going on - and what if the only times she's got doesn't work with us? She's been here a couple of times at 5:30p - luckily Jason was 'ok' at that time. I just wish we didn't have to go thru all of this with Jason. Is that bad???

Alright - it's 930p and I should get to bed myself. Jake's not the only one who has to get up early now!!! :(

G'night...